off

5 weeks off.

I think.

Time has gone blurry…

I did previously write a longish, fairly competent post about this on my iphone and then the crappy wordpress app failed to save my words, and it was definitely not pressed.

The official WordPress app is useless.

I came off Prozac 5 weeks ago. Roughly. Accidentally. Ran out of meds, and after 3 days without felt pretty good, so continued to stay off.

Too bitter to rewrite the long, decent post about, so for now, let me bullet you up.

• Week 1 – Feeling good.
• Week 2 – Getting some weird head flashes. Otherwise good.
• Week 3 – Headflashes turn into electro-head mincing machine, get pseudo flu, feel crappy for 3 days, have headache from hell, blows over, and settles into fairly constant tiredness, headflashes and odd feeling in head, worse when tired or stressed.
• Week 4 – As above, but start feeling a little low.
• Week 5 – Lowness begins to increase. Starting to think depression is taking over.

To summarise. Prozac was keeping depression at bay, but not other problems I have, such as anxiety (all kinds of that), anger issues, mood swings, stress issues and general hatred of humankind.

However, when you have all that stuff going on, not having to deal with depression as well is kind of helpful.

I am trying to hold out some hope that I am still in withdrawal phase, and will finally emerge, happy and smiling, but cannot remember ever being happy and smiling prior to prozac, so chances are slim I feel.

How long should I wait to see if this new depression is withdrawal, or just my life forever?

a) you shouldn’t, you crazy bastard. Take the meds now before you screw your newfound ‘almost like a normal person’ life up for good.

b) 2 weeks.

c) 1 month

d) as long as it takes, or until I kill myself. (possibly two answers there…)